Who can say what next year holds anyway?

I don't find it easy anymore
To laugh the way we used to
With our feet just barely off the floor

Yet another bit of music that speaks to me. The song is full of phrases--really wonderful lyrics--that are quite touching. They reflect the aftermath of a failed relationship. The harsh realities. The pain and overwhelming sense of loss. The questions that remain unanswered. The mixture of feelings that arise when you finally arrive at the decision to move on...despite the fear that what you had...what you lost can't ever be replaced--This is the part that I find most troublesome.

I'm afraid of never again experiencing the excitement that I shared with Chaos...over the littlest things. And I'm quite aware of how rare it is to find someone who can handle* me the way that Balance does. He's able to harness my energy, if you will, in a way that doesn't make me feel suffocated. And he does it with relative ease, because he understands me--yet another rarity.

So yeah. Sometimes it is harder to laugh than it used to be.

It happens.

*for lack of a better word...