Remember this feeling

coworkers just got back from the meeting about our office review. i wasn't invited to the meeting because--apparently i've only been here a year so i don't really matter. i was told that the meeting was about XX, not about any one of us. however--the other 2 got to go, why wasn't i allowed?

when i asked them questions about the meeting, the answers were vague at best. as if they learned nothing new. and maybe they didn't. apparently there's going to be another meeting sometime in january in which the two bosses--jesuit vs. bishop-- talk. so i have to wait til then to find out more...

the only concrete news that i did find out is that i'm getting reviewed on friday. i've been here a year, so it's time, they said. fact check: my year anniversary was in september-they should have done it then. seems like yet another weird occurence.

i am so completely frustrated right now. i was essentially told that i'm not part of an organization that i uprooted my life for.

fuck that.